Faith. In myself.

K so the sisters have been warning me to 'detour' before it's too late, as I shoveled 3 pineapple tarts and almost the whole container of seaweed spring roll crackers (IT'S DAMN ADDICTIVE) down my throat. Oh boy I felt obese. So obese. I felt numbed to my senses. Battling with self-image all this while (the scale told me that I'm almost 10kg heavier than touch rug days *cries* this is not normal), and just feeling so oily and unhealthy. URGH. 

So I decided to do what I have to do and stop living in self denial. And this time for real (I hope) so I'm penning (actually typing HAHA) my food diary all down here so I feel pressured to keep up. And in case anything happens, the doctor can track this diary. *touch wood*

My Hurom hh-sbf11 is a good companion. Cold pressed juices definitely taste better and like it keeps the maximum nutrients intact. Normal juicers operate on high speed which generates heat that kills the enzymes present in fruits and vegetables. Ok I stop here otherwise I'll sound like a monotonous promoter.

I'm putting so much faith in what skeptics name it as unrealistic, unsustainable, unsuccessful. But it's now or never. 

Abstinence 

#day1

I can't exactly express what abstinence means in this context. But I guess it's abstinence from dirty food? Over-indulgence? 

Breakfast (10+am): 2 cups of water, warm lemon water 

Kiwi, Green Apple, Broccoli, Lemon juice (It tasted so sour that I had to add 1/2 thsp of manuka honey) 

Lunch (1+pm): Watermelon, Lime and Mint juice (so refreshing and at least something sweet) 

Many water windows and green teas and toilet trips. 

Snack (530pm): Coconut water & I reached out for a couple of peanuts (an empty stomach felt so weird) 

Dinner (7pm): Usual home-cooked fare (brown & white rice, fish, kailan, tofu, soup) 

Water

Reflections: Juice cleanse 2/3. Huge transition from the CNY binge eating lifestyle :(

Sustainability 

#day2 

Initial plan was to make my juices for work but in the end, I woke up just in time to do 1. SIGH.

Breakfast (10am): Water, Warm lemon water 

Orange, Carrot, Mint and Green Apple Juice (not bad, tried chewing the juice) 

Off to work. I was so afraid that i'll faint at work

Lunch (with my mates) (2pm): Cai fan (cabbage and egg) $2 nia not bad save money.

Water & Green Tea & toilet trips 

Boss made iced hazelnut latte for me and it suddenly felt like a luxury. So good. 

But coffee and green tea shouldn't marry each other HAHA

Empty stomach at work doesn't feel good at all.

Dinner (close to 8pm): Usual home-cooked fare (rice, fish, pork, spinach, soup) 

Water 

Reflections: Juice cleanse 1/3. I feel that I would have died if I were to juice cleanse throughout all the meals. Only when I preoccupied with things that I don't feel the hunger. 

For a healthier body, I must persevere. 

#day3

Breakfast: Apple, Grape, Kiwi & Pear juice (Pooped easily right after)
Lunch: Bagel with Jia <3 (BIRD- turkey, guacamole, slaw) And I spilled my iced latte on myself. How foolish.
Dinner: Usual home-cooked fare (rice, braised duck, veg, old cucumber soup) 

#day4

Breakfast: Orange, Carrot, Apple & Mint juice (YUMS)

<Off to work>

Lunch: Rice, Egg, Otah, Cabbage (Prepared by Dana <3) 
(XX)Dinner: 8dayseat tasting party @Kuvo Cheese. Meat. Finger food. Good food in summation. 

CAN'T UPLOAD ANY PICS COS' 'CANON CONNECT' APP IS DOWN FOR DAYS ALRDY. APPLE/CANON PLEASE FIX THIS ASAP TO MAKE OUR LIVES BETTER.

#day5 

Breakfast: Coconut jelly from NTUC (Unexpected GUD stuff)

<Off to work>

Lunch: Eggplant with tomato paste & cheese (some italian dish cooked by Dana <3) with a slice of nutty wholemeal bread
(XX)Dinner: Staff reunion dinner seafood (Rice, black pepper flower crabs, drunken prawns, kailan, clams, damn sinful calamari)

#day6

Brunch: Cai fan (Rice, fish, veg, egg) 
(XX)Dinner: Softball gathering @Mel's (Bread with curry dip, sushi, quail eggs)

Haven't been gulping down enough water for the past few 3 days (but when I wake up YES) And having dinners that kill any diet plan HAHA. I need to get my shit together. 

Skipping/juice cleansing for breakfast doesn't affect my hunger status at later part of the day. Having a full breakfast doesn't actually work for me. So yeap. 

More updates soon when I get my shit together HAHA.

XOXO, Fei.